Sunday, November 28, 2004
Best song ever.. Jorma Kaukonen's GENESIS
Time has come for us to pause
And think of living as it was
Into the future we must cross, must cross
I'd like to go with you
And I'd like to go with you
You say I'm harder than a wall
A marble shaft about to fall
I love you dearer than them all, them all
So let me stay with you
So let me stay with you
And as we walked into the day
Skies of blue had turned to grey
I might have not been clear to say, to say
I never looked away
I never looked away
And though I'm feeling you inside
My life is rolling with the tide
I'd like to see it be an open ride
Along with you
Going along with you
The time we borrowed from ourselves
Can't stay within a vaulted well
And living turns into a lender's will
So let me come with you
And let me come with you
And when we came out into view
And there I found myself with you
When breathing felt like something new, new
Along with you
Going along with you
Genesis from Quah (1974)
"...my wife Margareta and I realized we were really miserable and we were trying to be happier together. I was writing a lot of true love songs -- true love almost gone wrong but saved at the last moment.
Some people have suggested that wouldn't it be nice if you could write songs like 'Genesis' all the time, and I always say, 'Yeah, it would be, but it would be great not to have to be in the place I was when I wrote it."
Many of the best songs get written in a state of abject misery. I prefer to write fewer songs and have less cataclysmic events in my life."
- Jorma Kaukonen
And think of living as it was
Into the future we must cross, must cross
I'd like to go with you
And I'd like to go with you
You say I'm harder than a wall
A marble shaft about to fall
I love you dearer than them all, them all
So let me stay with you
So let me stay with you
And as we walked into the day
Skies of blue had turned to grey
I might have not been clear to say, to say
I never looked away
I never looked away
And though I'm feeling you inside
My life is rolling with the tide
I'd like to see it be an open ride
Along with you
Going along with you
The time we borrowed from ourselves
Can't stay within a vaulted well
And living turns into a lender's will
So let me come with you
And let me come with you
And when we came out into view
And there I found myself with you
When breathing felt like something new, new
Along with you
Going along with you
Genesis from Quah (1974)
"...my wife Margareta and I realized we were really miserable and we were trying to be happier together. I was writing a lot of true love songs -- true love almost gone wrong but saved at the last moment.
Some people have suggested that wouldn't it be nice if you could write songs like 'Genesis' all the time, and I always say, 'Yeah, it would be, but it would be great not to have to be in the place I was when I wrote it."
Many of the best songs get written in a state of abject misery. I prefer to write fewer songs and have less cataclysmic events in my life."
- Jorma Kaukonen
Saturday, November 27, 2004
10 Years later.. AND?!?!?!?!
I did not do anything I had planned on doing this week thus far.
I have pretty much been in pajamas. I watch 2 movies. Sleep. Watch 2 movies. Eat. Watch 2 movies. Sleep. Eat. Sleep.
The one time I did drive my car I hit my best friends car in the driveway behind me. It's bright fucking yellow. How could i miss it. LOL
I went to my 10 year reunion which was not quite the wretching experience I thought it would be. It was actually kinda fun. About 10:30 my friends were like 'lets leave, we're going to the library pub' and I was like FORGET YOU. I'll meet you there later.
The more people got drunk the more shit would spew from peoples mouths. Seriously, like 4 girls were like 'I always wanted you, you were so sweet and funny' REALLY WELL WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THAT 13 YEARS AGO??!?!?
So I've re-connected with the 4 people that mattered to me from high school that I lost contact with. Pretty cool.
All the people I didn't like or decade old drama would come between us.. it really didn't matter, you just smile and nod and talk to them in a group. It was like if you didn't care about each other then, they didn't try to catch up with you now. Which is good cause if someone that knew nothing about me then was like "TELL ME ABOUT YOU!" I would have to say something like "Well you didn't know me then, so I guess I'll start telling you about me in 1991 and go from there."
My favorite was ummm I think Rachel Duboch. SHe was like "happy, healthy???" and thats it. yes . yes.. no BS involved. just tell me that you're doing what you wanted to or that you're about to do something about it.
It's weird being in a transition phase when telling people whats going on with you. I mean I think I'm happier than a lot of people [from high school] in my career but I make shit for money and advertising really does suck your soul from you.
Hanging out with a guy that makes $400 grand a year.. he's happy. I make just over $20 grand. Yet, we're both sellouts because advertising is fucking shitty.
I need to figure out a plan to work on nothing but comic book movies, write my own shit a lot more, do animated shorts with Jason Roth on a regular basis and live on my own.
I'll let you know how that works out.
I have pretty much been in pajamas. I watch 2 movies. Sleep. Watch 2 movies. Eat. Watch 2 movies. Sleep. Eat. Sleep.
The one time I did drive my car I hit my best friends car in the driveway behind me. It's bright fucking yellow. How could i miss it. LOL
I went to my 10 year reunion which was not quite the wretching experience I thought it would be. It was actually kinda fun. About 10:30 my friends were like 'lets leave, we're going to the library pub' and I was like FORGET YOU. I'll meet you there later.
The more people got drunk the more shit would spew from peoples mouths. Seriously, like 4 girls were like 'I always wanted you, you were so sweet and funny' REALLY WELL WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THAT 13 YEARS AGO??!?!?
So I've re-connected with the 4 people that mattered to me from high school that I lost contact with. Pretty cool.
All the people I didn't like or decade old drama would come between us.. it really didn't matter, you just smile and nod and talk to them in a group. It was like if you didn't care about each other then, they didn't try to catch up with you now. Which is good cause if someone that knew nothing about me then was like "TELL ME ABOUT YOU!" I would have to say something like "Well you didn't know me then, so I guess I'll start telling you about me in 1991 and go from there."
My favorite was ummm I think Rachel Duboch. SHe was like "happy, healthy???" and thats it. yes . yes.. no BS involved. just tell me that you're doing what you wanted to or that you're about to do something about it.
It's weird being in a transition phase when telling people whats going on with you. I mean I think I'm happier than a lot of people [from high school] in my career but I make shit for money and advertising really does suck your soul from you.
Hanging out with a guy that makes $400 grand a year.. he's happy. I make just over $20 grand. Yet, we're both sellouts because advertising is fucking shitty.
I need to figure out a plan to work on nothing but comic book movies, write my own shit a lot more, do animated shorts with Jason Roth on a regular basis and live on my own.
I'll let you know how that works out.
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Is it Fun Hi ?
I just joined this FunHi site.. anyone else on it?
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
i feel good (just like that james brown song)
For the first time in months I feel really good. Maybe it's because in my mind I know the changes I need to make and it's already released the stress of the confusion and indecision.
Somethings been eating me up inside and I just can't shake it off. It all came to a head when a discussion opened my eyes. I've made some decisions this week that will turn things around for me, or at least change my entire fucking world.
Where, how and when I pick up the pieces of myself and figure out how to evolve is yet to be determined.
On the way to Bonnaroo music festival in 2003, I read a bumper sticker that said "Stop bitching and start a revolution" and that's basically what has to bappen.
My brain is in dire need of revolution. My creative soul needs to become uninhibited. My dreams must become realized. My life must regain independence and freedom.
It's more involved than a simple bad day. It's more complex than a disenchanted feeling.
It's a yearning to better myself in larger steps than I was previously taking.
Step 1 : Strip my soul back down to the basics. Physically and Mentally. In the months to come I have to go thru my possessions as I will be cleaning out my room. I've been in that room since I was 4, with the exception of THE COLLEGE YEARS. Can you imagine the geological layers of myself strung out in all the things I've acquired since childhood. It's pretty hard to have a TRASH and a KEEP pile while sifting thru the things that have meant very much or very little thru the years. Deciding what to throw away and what is worth keeping.
Step 2 : Figure out where I am going to live. Choice 1) Boydell building. I could take the room of denis and live with Doc Choice 2) I could take an attic of a cool apartment complex on Cass Corridor Choice 3) I could leave town.
Step 3 : Satisfy my creative spirit. Jason Roth and I have been working on unfinished animated projects for over 2 years. Plus I have 2 completely written films that I have yet to successfully begin production on. Plus I have some other endeavers with local artists I've been throwing around ideas with. Plus I have other ideas creeping out of my head from time to time. The fact remains I HAVE NOT FINISHED A PERSONAL MOVIE OR ANIMATION SINCE 1999 WHEN I WAS AT GVSU.
Step 4 : Satisfy my thirst for knowledge. There are tools at my disposal I have yet to master. It would be a shame to have spent 3 years in a highly respected post house and never master these tools. Plus I am around some of the best 3D artists in the business and I have yet to quell my disrespect of 3D animation. I really should learn how to do it. The days of 3D Animation = Perfection in Mathmatic are over. Charactarized 3D animation is all over the place, it's possible and thats the only thing I really hated about it.. THINGS WERE TOO PERFECT. I tend to like FLAWED animation because it's interesting to me. I will take clay over mathmatic vectors ANY DAY. But I should learn it anyways. I think I will finish Winners & Losers. All I need to do to finish this piece is to design some Aliens that show up in the end and shoot me with a ray gun. That could be real fucking fun, yet I've been waiting for a good animator to do it but he's never had time. I could ask someone else but I could make an alien, right?
Step 5 : There is no step 5.
Step 6 : GET OFF THE INTERNET. Seriously. I haven't had my computer for days (it's in Cupertino, California being fixed by Apple) and low and behold I realize how much I over use the fucking internet. If I don't use Myspace, LiveJournal or AOL IM for a month I wonder how much I would get done to better myself. A LOT I'M SURE.
MORE ON THIS STORY AS IT DEVELOPS
Somethings been eating me up inside and I just can't shake it off. It all came to a head when a discussion opened my eyes. I've made some decisions this week that will turn things around for me, or at least change my entire fucking world.
Where, how and when I pick up the pieces of myself and figure out how to evolve is yet to be determined.
On the way to Bonnaroo music festival in 2003, I read a bumper sticker that said "Stop bitching and start a revolution" and that's basically what has to bappen.
My brain is in dire need of revolution. My creative soul needs to become uninhibited. My dreams must become realized. My life must regain independence and freedom.
It's more involved than a simple bad day. It's more complex than a disenchanted feeling.
It's a yearning to better myself in larger steps than I was previously taking.
Step 1 : Strip my soul back down to the basics. Physically and Mentally. In the months to come I have to go thru my possessions as I will be cleaning out my room. I've been in that room since I was 4, with the exception of THE COLLEGE YEARS. Can you imagine the geological layers of myself strung out in all the things I've acquired since childhood. It's pretty hard to have a TRASH and a KEEP pile while sifting thru the things that have meant very much or very little thru the years. Deciding what to throw away and what is worth keeping.
Step 2 : Figure out where I am going to live. Choice 1) Boydell building. I could take the room of denis and live with Doc Choice 2) I could take an attic of a cool apartment complex on Cass Corridor Choice 3) I could leave town.
Step 3 : Satisfy my creative spirit. Jason Roth and I have been working on unfinished animated projects for over 2 years. Plus I have 2 completely written films that I have yet to successfully begin production on. Plus I have some other endeavers with local artists I've been throwing around ideas with. Plus I have other ideas creeping out of my head from time to time. The fact remains I HAVE NOT FINISHED A PERSONAL MOVIE OR ANIMATION SINCE 1999 WHEN I WAS AT GVSU.
Step 4 : Satisfy my thirst for knowledge. There are tools at my disposal I have yet to master. It would be a shame to have spent 3 years in a highly respected post house and never master these tools. Plus I am around some of the best 3D artists in the business and I have yet to quell my disrespect of 3D animation. I really should learn how to do it. The days of 3D Animation = Perfection in Mathmatic are over. Charactarized 3D animation is all over the place, it's possible and thats the only thing I really hated about it.. THINGS WERE TOO PERFECT. I tend to like FLAWED animation because it's interesting to me. I will take clay over mathmatic vectors ANY DAY. But I should learn it anyways. I think I will finish Winners & Losers. All I need to do to finish this piece is to design some Aliens that show up in the end and shoot me with a ray gun. That could be real fucking fun, yet I've been waiting for a good animator to do it but he's never had time. I could ask someone else but I could make an alien, right?
Step 5 : There is no step 5.
Step 6 : GET OFF THE INTERNET. Seriously. I haven't had my computer for days (it's in Cupertino, California being fixed by Apple) and low and behold I realize how much I over use the fucking internet. If I don't use Myspace, LiveJournal or AOL IM for a month I wonder how much I would get done to better myself. A LOT I'M SURE.
MORE ON THIS STORY AS IT DEVELOPS
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
my 110 foot videoscreen debut
bahwahaha.
i am IN the detroit ford autoshow video this year.. for the hampton concept car video theres a shot of 'austin city limits' and i am the bassist in the band on stage .. hehehe -
you can see it in detroit in january, los angeles auto show in february or geneva if you happen to go to europe LOL
i am IN the detroit ford autoshow video this year.. for the hampton concept car video theres a shot of 'austin city limits' and i am the bassist in the band on stage .. hehehe -
you can see it in detroit in january, los angeles auto show in february or geneva if you happen to go to europe LOL
Friday, November 05, 2004
weird
my old boss at avalon films came in for some animation and editing for the Michigan Lottery spots he directed... apparently i never lost my job there, the office manager in 2000 that told me i wasn't needed anymore was lying.
she told me Larry's nephew was coming home from school and they didn't need me anymore.. well he said he doesn't have a nephew and they just thought i stopped showing up.. that girl that told me that quit shortly after. we talked about me working for avalon on the weekends when they have film shoots which is cool, i loved shooting film with those cats.
she told me Larry's nephew was coming home from school and they didn't need me anymore.. well he said he doesn't have a nephew and they just thought i stopped showing up.. that girl that told me that quit shortly after. we talked about me working for avalon on the weekends when they have film shoots which is cool, i loved shooting film with those cats.
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Boston Halloween Video Camera Pix
OK. Here are the pix from my video camera. Keep in mind I don't have a flash as it fell off the 8th floor of a parking garage in Las Vegas in April. *SOB*
When I left Detroit I went to our new Northwest Hub for the first time. This airport has better mass-transit then the rest of Detroit
Boston is a great town for halloween.
Friday's photos are in the other post, so we'll skip right to Saturday.
We woke up and walked 2 blocks away to where the parade was for the Boston Red Sox. It's quite a celebration when you haven't won in 86 years.
After a visit to Kinkos, my costume was ready to go.
Eric and Amy looked WAY cooler than me and got props from people all night long.
Sunday we headed up north to Salem. Salem is THE halloween town, so tons of people go there.
In 1692 they would have burned me.
I got to see James Hanes. I haven't seen him since 1994. He is still as cool as I remember.
Salem is packed. Hope you're not in a hurry to go anywhere!
This nun was beating this guy right in public. GO LATEX NUN, GO!!!
Graveyards are extra spooky in Salem.
The coolest dog ever!
Kids are so cool.
When I left Detroit I went to our new Northwest Hub for the first time. This airport has better mass-transit then the rest of Detroit
Boston is a great town for halloween.
Friday's photos are in the other post, so we'll skip right to Saturday.
We woke up and walked 2 blocks away to where the parade was for the Boston Red Sox. It's quite a celebration when you haven't won in 86 years.
After a visit to Kinkos, my costume was ready to go.
Eric and Amy looked WAY cooler than me and got props from people all night long.
Sunday we headed up north to Salem. Salem is THE halloween town, so tons of people go there.
In 1692 they would have burned me.
I got to see James Hanes. I haven't seen him since 1994. He is still as cool as I remember.
Salem is packed. Hope you're not in a hurry to go anywhere!
This nun was beating this guy right in public. GO LATEX NUN, GO!!!
Graveyards are extra spooky in Salem.
The coolest dog ever!
Kids are so cool.
Monday, November 01, 2004
Boston Halloween Cell Phone Pix
These are not from my video camera. These are just pix from my cell phone.
The first night we hit up the essentials
Everyone needs a little Cheers and a little chowder. Corona optional.
For my costume, I went out as the Patriot Act.
You have to look pouty faced when you're trying to be a model.
I went to Boston to spend time with Eric for his birthday.
Eric was a great Jack Skeleton and his girl Amy was Sally, both are characters from A Nightmare Before Christmas.
We went near Fenway park to a party hosted by Myspace.com.
Eric got the chance to judge the crowd approval cheers of the ladies' best costumes.
More pix coming later from the video camera stills.. just wait till you see the streets of Salem on Halloween...
The first night we hit up the essentials
Everyone needs a little Cheers and a little chowder. Corona optional.
For my costume, I went out as the Patriot Act.
You have to look pouty faced when you're trying to be a model.
I went to Boston to spend time with Eric for his birthday.
Eric was a great Jack Skeleton and his girl Amy was Sally, both are characters from A Nightmare Before Christmas.
We went near Fenway park to a party hosted by Myspace.com.
Eric got the chance to judge the crowd approval cheers of the ladies' best costumes.
More pix coming later from the video camera stills.. just wait till you see the streets of Salem on Halloween...
